I wish it wasn't so god damned easy to just do nothing. Seriously, I can spend hours, and hours, and HOURS just sitting around browsing random stuff on the internet, watching stupid youtube videos, or often just doing literally nothing. Not even thinking. Just sitting, letting my mind wander in space. Because it's easy. It's really easy to do, and things are hard to do. It's hard to decide to get up and go for a walk. It's hard to decide to think about and write a story. It's hard to go outside and have small talk with people that you run into throughout the day. You know what's not hard? Doing nothing. It's fabulous. 

In case you couldn't tell, I'm having some troubles coming up with blog post ideas. It would probably help if I didn't wait until 8 or 9 pm to start writing the post for the day, thus giving me more time to actually flesh out a full length, actually engaging post, but, as you can tell by the title and the first paragraph, it's really easy for me to procrastinate. It's definitely one of, if not my biggest, weakness. I feel like I've written that exact sentence before on the blog. Whatever, I've got a lot of weaknesses, and I'm prone to hyperbole. Deal with it. 

I'm not sure exactly what it is that causes me to just not do the things I want to or have to do. Maybe it's just trying to start them. I often find out that once I've started to do something it's not even close to as bad or as annoying or as time consuming as I thought it would be. I usually way overestimate how much time something will take. If I need to clean up my room I'll grab a piece of paper and write out "30 minutes for picking up garbage and clothes, 20 minutes to vacuum the tiny space I live in, an hour to fold laundry" and stuff like that. I tell myself I overestimate because then when I'm done earlier I'll have more free time, or that way if something goes wrong and it takes a bit longer I won't be disappointed, but really all it does is create this falsely insurmountable list of tasks that seems like it can never be done. So then I never start, and they actually never get done. 

Getting over the idea of doing something and just doing it is key to my workflow. Let's look at waking up for an example. I've talked before about my problems with getting up in the morning. My brain just won't do it, and I'm not really sure how to get the control back to make my discipline kick in and get myself out of bed. Once I'm actually standing, it's not bad at all, and I wake up very quickly. It's that initial burst though, that first push to get my legs over the edge and my ass off the mattress. There's something in my head that just shouts "no!" over and over, and I can't seem to shut it down. Before I fall asleep I know that I need to just jump straight up in the morning, and when I'm finally awake and making coffee I tell myself that the next morning I will make sure I get up straight away and get moving so my brain wakes up, but it's that time between alarm going off and actually getting up that is crucial to the entire process, and I just can't seem to get it right. It's not like it's something I can practice either, I only get one shot at it each morning, and I either blow it or I don't Lately I've been blowing it a lot. 

I need to look into branching out in my blogging subjects, these whiny posts must get boring after awhile. Trust me, I hate the complaining just as much as you do, but if I'm being honest, which I want to be, I have to write about what I'm truly feeling, not just what I think people might want to read. I'm going to look into some easy topics that I can write about on the days where nothing happens and I didn't get to a fully thought out post. That's exactly what today was. I'm not really sure where the whole day went, but I did almost literally nothing today. i woke up, walked around town a bit, didn't go shopping like I was supposed to, picked up my cousin from school, went for a walk with my sister, and now I'm writing a blog post. Nothing else happened. So what am I supposed to write about on a day like today? I'm going to come up with some easy ideas that can quickly make up an interesting blog post on the boring days. I also need to start taking more pictures. These wall of texts must get pretty boring after awhile too. It's something I always remember to do later. I'll think "shit, I should have taken some pictures while I was doing that". Now that I have a blog, I'll be making a conscious effort to take more pictures, so when I write about what I did that day, we have some visual aids to go along. 

What kinds of things would you like to hear about? I'm looking for quick, easy topics that can be banged out in a half hour, and that people would like to read. Should I make top ten type lists of some of my favourite things? Should I pick a piece of news from that day and just spew out my thoughts about it? Would you like to read just random short stories, unedited and unfiltered, written in the spur of the moment about some random topic? These are just some of the ideas I've come up with for quick posts I can do without much notice, but what are some of your ideas? Leave a comment below and let me know!